Good morning
Thank you for picking up
this week’s blog post-I really appreciate your support and hope my journey has
been helpful to those who have been following. I will be taking a short break from blogging, until September 2015. This week I wanted to capsulize
my last year, it has been a year of personal
transformation beyond recognition for the most parts.
I would like to wish you all
a very happy summer, 2015! I will be taking the opportunity to renew my mind,
body, spirit and soul. I look forward to sharing some of my adventures with you next month.
Best wishes
KIMI
Almost a year ago, I was feeling
lost and anxious about the future. Leaving the source of dysfunction provided
some relief to my pain, it also drained the life out of me. I was left feeling frustrated that even though I left the place of despair, it still had a
hold over me. I booked myself into therapy and I learnt that the mind goes
through a healing process in acceptance and moving on. I was really inspired to
put my trauma in a philosophical sense, so that I am empowered and not disempowered and I am a victor, not a victim- Joel Osteen. In my previous
posts you will find my reading lists and what I gained from those sources. This
was a pretty dark period for me, because I was exhausted physically, mentally
and spiritually. I needed a sense of direction and I read widely in the hope of finding some answers. I came across a common theme of how people turn their lives around from living in lack and
mediocrity to living in abundance. The common denominator was God and the Lord
Jesus Christ. My understanding is that many of the self-development ideas comes
from the Bible, including the law of attraction Joel Osteen talks a lot about
what you give out to the universe comes back to you in a biblical sense too.
My hero the late Stephen
Covey, author of the 7 habits of highly effective people also referred to the
scriptures and I use this book religiously in developing a better self. The 7
habits was my manual to get myself out of a dire situation. It provided the
focus I needed to make it work for me and for it not to be in vain. In short-
the organisation was dysfunctional in every sense of the word and I was barely
coping day to day, let alone muster the energy to find a new job. Understandably I was anything but
effective both personally and professionally. I needed to regain focus pretty
rapidly for my own well-being and sanity so the 7 habits became my saviour. I
read the text and referred each habit back to the circumstances and I had my
answer on how I can be more effective during dysfunction, drama and strife. If
this job can teach me anything is how to handle dysfunction- because not much
is actually right about this place. This doesn’t change the fact that I wish to
terminate my contract, but at least it makes the reminding days more bearable
as I am now leading to my exit with purpose and skills that would serve me well for many years to come.
My attitude to the whole ordeal
was the difference to what saved me to what would have killed my spirit. Joel
Osteen talks about don’t let negativity sour your attitude, stay in faith that
everything will work out for the better and if you make the best out of every
situation even the negative ones- you will see yourself grow onto much higher
levels because through adversity you gain strength, character and ultimately maturity that would stand you in good stead against the trials and tribulations
of life.
Reflecting on that very
testing period, I am glad I took the decision to stay in faith and make the
best out of seemingly dire situation because it has provided me with the
opportunity to get outside of my comfort zone and learning the importance of
having and staying in faith. In my humble opinion this is what sets me apart from going on a downward
spiral or moving forward. At one point, I was raging with anger, had I
reacted to that and made an impulsive decision on the back of this emotion my
life may have turned out very different and my daughter would have been at the
mercy of this.
Since I have
been studying the word of Christ and going to church, my past seem less and
less relevant as each day goes by. I know that my best days are still in front of me. I
believe that through the Holy Spirit I have been cleansed and healed by any generational
bondage or sin that has come down the chain. I feel whole and strong again
because I am no longer tied to the pain I endured. I can use my pain to
self-destruct or I can use my pain to help others, turning struggles into
success and obtstacles into opportunites. In the words of Tyler Perry- what has worked against you can also
work for you- if you allow it. I want to inspire hope through the trials and tribulations of life and you can breakthrough if you stay in faith. For me God, provides me with the inner peace and nothing can steal my joy. Staying prayed up enables
me to be at my best and a good role model for my daughter. Life is full of
trials and tribulations I believe through Christ I am having a much healthier
and sustainable way of living. Prior to Christ, I use work to numb my pain and I
was constantly on a crash and burn cycle, nothing productive came out of it. Now I just give my cares and concerns to God, I believe he would guide me through it.
Being solution focused helps me to build a more productive future, without it you will only exist and cease to live. Every day, I am
growing and developing into a better version of me than I was yesterday.
Building on this harmony and positivity has given me clarity in my
future, because I am free from all the drama, dysfunction and strife that
previously held me back. At first I was scared to start over again, now I
have found it to be one of the most liberating thing, as sometimes life can get so
crowded with thoughts, emotions and things. The only way to regain control and
clarity is to de-clutter the stuff, after all clutter is never associated with
anything good. I had found guided mediation to be a great tool to
offload daily emotions to start fresh in the morning. I aim to do a morning and evening mind cleansing to ensure I am a
free from historic emotions and focus on the present. After each session I
always feel relaxed and in a very Zen state of mind. If this is of interest, the best place to start is YouTube, there are many versions of Guided
Mediation-I was recommended Chakra Guided Mediation as I had real difficulties
in switching off.
I personally believe in
the law of attraction and the universe is responding to us- as the saying goes
life isn’t happening to you, it’s happening for you. In just under a year, I
rebuilt my inner strength physically, mentally and spiritually to think in possibilities. I also embraced my entrepreneurial spirit and combined it with my passion for
writing. I created a range of bags for life, this is not only to support the #environment but to give #inspiration
whilst you are on the GO.
For more information
please following me on eBay- I will be re-launching this in September 2015 http://www.ebay.co.uk/usr/thinking-kimi
Don’t forget to check out
the extra post this week- A sneak preview of my novel! In the meantime have a great summer and see you all next month.
Best wishes
KIMI
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