Behind my new beginning, there was uncertainty,   The unknown and the doubt.   The hesitation of the what ifs   All very abstract in my mind,   But very real to how I was feeling, going through   The seasons of transition.     My head tells me that everything in life is either a   Lesson or blessing,   At the same time, I am still wrestling with the   Mourning over the grief and loss.   All that I dreamed and work for   The stuff no longer exists but still sits in my mind.     The injustice tormented me,   The betrayal devastated me,   The sadness paralysed me,   The mistreatment wrecked me,   The abuse damaged me,   And the hate fractured me.     As I sat in pain, I realised that I can   Take cover to hide from the world or   I can take courage and confront my wounds.   I took refuge in knowing that I have hit rock bottom   Now the only way is up, but   I was defeated and deflated.   It just seemed impossible, until I came across light.     The light loved me when I was emp...