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The Beauty of Transition





Behind my new beginning, there was uncertainty,
The unknown and the doubt.
The hesitation of the what ifs
All very abstract in my mind,
But very real to how I was feeling, going through
The seasons of transition.

My head tells me that everything in life is either a
Lesson or blessing,
At the same time, I am still wrestling with the
Mourning over the grief and loss.
All that I dreamed and work for
The stuff no longer exists but still sits in my mind.

The injustice tormented me,
The betrayal devastated me,
The sadness paralysed me,
The mistreatment wrecked me,
The abuse damaged me,
And the hate fractured me.

As I sat in pain, I realised that I can
Take cover to hide from the world or
I can take courage and confront my wounds.
I took refuge in knowing that I have hit rock bottom
Now the only way is up, but
I was defeated and deflated.
It just seemed impossible, until I came across light.

The light loved me when I was empty.
The light cared for me when I was unable.
The light guided me when I was lost.
The light sat with me when I was alone.
The light saved me when I was dying.
And the light transformed me,
When I was no longer trying.







The light continued to follow me, and now
I am restored and
Finally saying ‘yes’ to life.
The period of darkness has bared my soul.
My struggles no longer hold me down, as that was
My story, not my destiny.

I can now say that my scars are my strength, without it
I wouldn’t have taken the time to realise what
I did want and moreover
Facing my fears that were holding me back.

I was so alone that I settled for the wrong person,
I was so insecure that I looked for comfort,
I was so fearful that I failed to act,
I was so hurt that it became my norm.
My period of vulnerability has now broken through and
I am free to live, think and be as I am.

Stepping into the unknown is unsettling but
So is settling in life.
I now know the value of becoming rather what was,
And the difference between
Having regrets and living in regrets.
I have learnt to be comfortable with the uncomfortable so
I triumph in spite of adversity,

Nothing can hold me down anymore. 

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