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Morning Inspiration: Saying Hello To My Pain





Saying Hello to My Pain

The earth sits in darkness plighted by a fallen world,
So brutal that it bruised the core of my soul.
I am held captive by the sheer pain that dwells in me,
Evoking grievances that reside around me.
I am drowning in an ocean of bitterness that meets the depths of my sadness.
I am on a moving sphere of victimhood,
Created purely to endure the living nightmare that we call life.
I am restless in my soul and distressed in my spirit.
I am lost, having yet to be found, putting me into a blind state of panic.
That twisted my faith in mankind.
                                                            
Little by little, bit by bit my living is diminishing and my existence is increasing.
My wounded soul feels so entrenched, it left me paralysed.
The sea of loss became my world,
As the blending of the pain and hurt becomes
An infusion of struggle and fight giving me daily unrest.
The despair weaves into every fabric of my spirit,
Whilst I am breathing but not yet living.

Life has become more of a war, filling me with dread.
Relentlessly haunting and taunting me.
My mind has become a battle ground that consumes me.
I am unworthy, I am damaged and I am lost in a desperate world.
The pain is embedded and enshrined into my sorry case for a living person.
My worst fear is not the pain itself, but that pain will be the story for the rest of my life.

After travelling many years through the journey of pain, the train has stopped.
Leaving me at a beauty spot that I have ached to see. 
As I laid on the top of the mountains, my body was finally at rest.
I looked up into the sky and saw the beauty in the heavens.
My tears have dried and my sobbing reduced to silence.
Longing for a type of peace that flows through faithfully.

Enabling oneself to feel the freedom beyond the physical.
I felt the delicate breeze of peace and healing.
Leading me to be at a space of acceptance. 
And gave me the courage to say:
Hello to my pain. 

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