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My Testimony- A journey of healing, forgiving & living the present. Breaking the cycle & building better tomorrows & generations to come

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Thank you for stopping by at this week’s blog- As 2015 is drawing to a close I will be starting to reflect on learning points in the last year and how I can take it to the next level. I wanted to start by sharing my testimony- whilst I have made biblical references I do feel the sentiments of pain is very relatable and hope my story can give you food for thought on your own journey. I wish you every happiness and success in finding your own peace or indeed increasing your own abundance.

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For the past 30 years it has been with great sadness to acknowledge that I have been going through the motions of existing and not living. The cycle of dysfunction and strife is all too familiar. I turn into someone that felt defeated and deflated. We can only teach our children what we know and if what we know isn’t the greatest example then I ask the question what chances has my child got? I felt the burden of my upbringing and the forever lasting imprint on my life. After yet another life changing event- I hit rock bottom, I was physically, mentally and spiritually broken and lost the will to fight. A sense of guilt washed over me as if I don’t learn to do things differently, my daughter will probably describe a childhood that is not too dissimilar to my own, the very childhood that I didn’t think too much of.  The generational bondage has to be broken, the biggest failing of all would be yet another child going through more or less of the same with the end no-where in sight and I would be no better than the parents, who failed me.

Reading it’s your time- by Joel Osteen marks the start of my journey with the Lord. It had a profound effect on me-especially the words of: don’t turn a season of mourning into a lifetime of mourning and our words has power over our destiny. I was inspired, uplifted and encouraged to learn more about the word of God. My first sermon was a message by Steve Witt, it spoke right to my core. For the first time, I felt at great ease and my mindset shifted to think in possibilities and abundance. The wrong I AM has kept me from my destiny. I now only use words to bless over my life because I believe ‘life & death are in the power of the tongue.’ A year on from the trial that tested me to the brink, I am now at a place where I have learnt to co-exist in the broken society we live in. After learning God doesn’t waste anything and there was a purpose to our pain it was only right I turn my pain into my purpose & use it as inspiration to others and giving hope to whoever needs it.  Jesus is a wonderful gift from God because he takes our ashes and in return he will give us his beauty, he has also given me the strength to just let it go because we are born to soar like eagles. In the words of TD Jakes- you cannot reach your destiny with your history in your hand.

We are at our most teachable, when we are the most vulnerable because human nature tends to be comfortable with the comfortable, the problem is no greatness is ever achieve that’s why yet another sermon spoke right to my heart. I now know I began to experience a paradigm shift. For me, a baptism will draw me closer in my walk with the Lord because the washing away from the old life will symbolise a new life. I have no doubt that I be bolder in my steps because God’s unconditional love has healing power and gives me peace to focus on the right things.

Since knowing the truth I value the becoming, rather what was. I am therefore keen to declare my faith as it will cement my new identity because in the true spirit of the Gospel- when you know who you are, where you are going no one else can tell you otherwise, and lastly when you are full of the spirit in love, faith and hope settling doesn’t become an option.

With Love


KIMI X 

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